Til death do us part?

A touch, a kiss a look. To be completely in synch to where even our thoughts, so aligned that if they could manifest into words on a paper the uncanny identicality of our thought processes would be, eerie to say the least. It’s kind of like how in movie action scenes two people will fight and each move is carefully scripted to where one punches the other ducks. Just so purely on the same page. Perhaps one of the most amazing things in my life time has been the realization that this kind of connection is so much more synonymous with loneliness than love. Routine creates synchronization almost like a habit like your hand or eyes going to an object that you place as simple as an app on your phone. Love doesn’t ever go away it either fades or it evolves and to me the 8th wonder of the world—or what ever number the “experts” who say what constitutes as such say we are on is how people can escape from under the crushing anxiety of the unknown. A lot of different people have an idea of what marriage should be and the most common answer I hear is that you have to find someone that you can stand for the rest of your life. But people will go to a job that they cannot bear to be at and they will rationalize it by saying that it wont be forever or that its a necessary evil at that the moment. When you apply that to thinking about a marriage both of those rationalizations are for lack of a better word sad, you don’t want the person that knows all your secrets who you share your entire entity with to be with you because they’re scared of what its like not be without the comfort of not having to communicate with someone. Everybody has this idea in their head about what marriage is supposed to be because everything about it is glorified. It’s an ideal more so than a reality and that isn’t always a bad thing because who doesn’t want a fairytale love life, but the true reality is that you just don’t know whether it will fade or evolve and it’s unknown which way it will go but that shouldn’t be why we do it. Devoting your life to someone is so much more than a piece of paper it is joining souls, and dreams to build the best version of our lives. An adventure with your best friend and it could last a lifetime, or just a time in your life but appreciate that it did last because it all matters.

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