TAW

I’m not a scientist, or a doctor, a lawyer or even a drive thru employee, but barring all of that I have been doing a lot of thinking. I firmly believe in writing what you know, and that’s a major reason that I don’t pack whatever I write with statistics and specific dates. It’s not that I think I’m not capable or that I have any misgivings against those who do because most of what I do know is thanks in part to them. What I mean by writing what you know isn’t that you can’t create ideas or stories. I just think that whenever people conjure those stories of superheroes, or magic beings and whatever else that they pull from their real life. There are so many examples that are inherently meta, especially what could be considered classics in this day in age. I watched Alice in wonderland recently and I realized though it was a real enough world, which may still be up for debate there were parallels in Alice’s life when it came to wonderland. The Wizard of Oz is another, where Dorothy goes to a place where she finds that a lot of her encounters in the land of Oz resonate with her real life. Removing yourself from within and looking at the bigger picture I don’t believe L. Frank Baum or Lewis Carrol had ever been in worlds that resembled this not that I know everything but I do believe that their imagination had given them the tools to create it. The characters are people just like you and I know people and they have qualities that correlate with the real world. I believe that most people write what they inherently know, but I also think that both of them did so. They pulled from moments in their life and experiences that they’d had that gave them no option but to share it with the world. I don’t think I ever truly understood that if I’m being honest, but mostly because though I do love the aforementioned stories, I don’t necessarily believe in most of what I can’t see. Not that I’m not an inspired person, but because when I was younger I decided that I was going to put my faith in people and as I got older that was only reinforced. The good in people that is, and recently I have been going through a lot mentally. Not in the way that most people would assume, genuinely I’m a happy person and glad to be that way. But I do value intellect and the thought processes that accommodate it. It’s just, I have been blocked, which leads me down roads of scrapping what I thought was what I wanted to do with my life after all this time and choosing something else. Like most people I believe that there are a multitude of career paths I could go down, but as an inspired person I can’t ever settle on something that doesn’t keep me up at night. So I go in a circle sometimes bigger than other times back to this. Along with being blocked, come all the fears; will I be able to make money? Will I be able to sustain a career? Or just plainly am I good enough? Then a few days ago something started to happen. I never used to dream in continuity, they never made sense in any fashion, there was no storyline and I rarely could remember them. The only thing in my life that changed was that I was desperate to think of something because I have never wanted anything so badly. Then it happened, recently it feels as if my brain is looking out for me in ways that it never had before. Stories, ideas, and all types of other stuff have been planting themselves firmly in my mind. Whether it be in dreams or me noticing something in my life that I never had before. The reason I talked about not being the professions I named earlier is because I’m sure there’s ample amount of research that can support what’s been recently happening to me. It isn’t that I agree or disagree, but when I think about all of the awespiring worlds and inventions that people have recreated I have to wonder, could any of those professionals have predicted that? Innovation isn’t about facts and calculations, sure they play a part but the seed being planted is about believing in something more than you ever should. Telling yourself no matter what anybody thinks what you put your heart and soul into is going to change the world. The people who’ve conquered that are the ones that we still talk about decades later, whatever it was inside of them that told them that it needed to happen. I’m not saying that I will write the next wizard of Oz or advance our world into a technological utopia, and I don’t want to. For me it isn’t about that, I found something that my brain won’t let me quit, and I think that is the real goal in all of this. For everybody to figure out what their mind, body, and soul clings to no matter what. It might take you a long time to find it, and you will most definitely get side tracked along the way. But there is nothing better than realizing that no matter what you can’t give up, you won’t let yourself. So although I’m not a doctor or a lawyer and virtually have no skills, I am a dreamer and I’ll take that any day.